I continue with the topic alcoholism. Now like I said I found that someone who actually took the desire away from me. But let me tell you how I got to that point. Now in 1989 in April after I got sick, and I made this promise to God I made a deal with him, if he heals me I promise him I will follow him in everything. And one of this things were alcohol for sure and also smoking and swearing and other stuff we do in our society and it is ok. But because I promised he healed me so I had to keep a promise. But I thought after that happened, I made a promise I because a Christian. So I thought it was all over. In the beginning i did repent, for a while I didnt drink, nothing. And I quit smoking for a short time because I just coulnt give up. So I would go back and forth, smoke for 3 weeks, not smoke for another one. Then slowly I start to drink again. Now I didnt drink like before to get drunk but I had 3 or 4 beers and I would feel guilty but I couldnt give up. So I kept myself to the point in saying well if I dont get drunk then thats still acceptable. I Thought that God says none of the drunks will see heaven, so I found myself a comfort place saying if I had only 2 or 3 beers then it is maybe not too bad. One day I went to work, I was working nights for northern telecom. It was about 2 oclock in the morning. So I went outside to smoke a cigaret from my section where I used to work. It was a beautiful sky, lots of stars, the moon. And I was looking up and then I start <b>…<b>